生活日志, 学习/阅读July 23, 2006 11:59 pm

Pagoda, Lake 

The lovely scenery of the Pagoad and the lake in Beida 

Library 

The enormous library… 

Winter 

Winter at the foreign student’s dorm Sha0yu@n 

Shaoyuan 

The front of Sha0yu@n, where I’ll be living for the next 4 years. 

The photos only as reference, not mine. Thank you btw,

I’ve been accepted into the school of my dreams, a big big dream that started all the way since the end of JC year 1, when I arrived in the beautiful city (albeit rather smoggish) of Beijing for me LEP immersion. 

Beida has its roots in the late Qing dynasty, but eventually grew to become the greatest academic institution in all of China, thanks to its spirit of 兼容并包, accomodating all sorts of academia and vitalising the school with a spirit of enquiry and learning.

Every year, I believe hundreds of thousands of the most elite students across the country face heavy pressures from their high school exams, just so that they may enter this prestigious University. I am privileged, honoured and elated to join the family, where the academia are well-versed in both content and spirit, while my peers are no less than the cream of the crop. Perhaps I don’t deserve it, but now that I’ve come this far, regardless of the path ahead of it, good or bad, inspiring or disappointing, I will grit my teeth and hold on, enjoy and indulge myself in every way, only to seek enlightenment on this path of learning.

I’m looking forward to it.

生活日志 2:59 pm

With reference to a series of PSC/MOE courses and seminars being held from 10 Jul - 22 Jul 2006.

PSC PDC 

The PSC PDC (policy phase?) included all other Ministry-level scholars this time round (including 49 of us from MOE) and I’m pretty sure both PSC and their scholars felt pretty odd about it.  

We were given a series of presentations by various ministry representatives: MFA, MTI, MCYS, as well as sharings by a few VERY senior civil servants such as Mr Kau$isan and Mr Alber+ Chua. Not forgetting Dr. ^my the mayor. To be frank, not all of them were fantastic speakers, though MFA speakers never disappointed.

Apart from the talks and stuff, I requested to be given a chance for the tours that the EMS and other scholars were going for. The large number of people in the group made every tour a big mess to be honest, and the quality of questions from us were not really THERE. But nevertheless, I did pick up a thing or two here and there, and I guess that’s all that matters.

Last but not least, all the last day, when we were requested to summarise our learnings from the PDC, we were grouped by our presentation topics, and all of a sudden, it became natural that I was to chair the whole thing in the group since I’ve been high-profile in TSPC anyway. Which was ODD. Anyway, I think our group did the most actual discussions and stuff, the rest were pretty much chit-chatting and playing with harmonicas =P BUT, it doesn’t mean our presentation was good. It was in fact, quite bad. A humbling experience, I admit.

One regrettable thing though, was that we missed the tea session with the PS of PSD due to OBS. I’d love to hear what the PS has to say.

**OBS, as illustrated in the previous post**

The MOE induction course was held for all 300+ teaching scholars and awardees. Ice-breaker games didn’t break much ice, considering how passive some of my group were, or then again I’m overly enthusiastic. After which, there was briefing by AD(Plans) regarding all the changes in the education fraternity, which was heavy on content, but not really as candid.

The highlight of the day, I felt, was the sharing session by Mrs Chua, the appointed principal of North-light school. She impressed not only me, but also the entire floor, with her wry sense of humour as well as inspiring stories of her experiences through her education career. Everyone’s a star she says, and the fact that she gave a well-deserved 2nd chance to a student deserted by society, swept me off the floor. Will I one day, be such an inspiring and captivating figure? I can only hope and work towards it step at a time.

The afternoon programme was the curriculum briefing, where I met all the 16 other teaching scholars/awardees doing Chinese language and literature. The speaker was a curriculum spec from the HQ, and I was impressed by how she prepared all the necessary information and placed them into a neat binder. The briefings were relevant, kinda heavy on the factual stuff, but I think I could make do with it considering how the other curriculum briefings appeared to be less engaging.

I think I was feeling particularly lonely, when the lady asked the floor "who is against the education system dropping the Chinese syllabus standards?". I was a lonely voice, my hand the only one in the air. Was I chasing after an irrealistic dream? Were my peers all numb and indifferent to our deterioration? I didn’t know.

Where is the Chinese language heading to in Singapore? Where am I heading towards? Let time tell.

The following day, the overseas scholars had a full day of seminars relating to drugs, safety as well as overcoming psychological barriers and culture shocks. They were generally interesting but perhaps dragged across too long a period of time, they lost quite a lot of attention from the floor.

The briefings from the seniors regarding overseas life and the relevant preparations were good, but perhaps overly repetitive. I was particularly disappointed with the China one as I was hoping to hear more scenarios relating to the Beijing culture and practices, but then again, I doubt the rest of the overseas scholars really need to know.

The day ended off with interaction with the MOE seniors in the respective countries, seeing yingyi again was great, but the turn-out of the Beijing seniors were less than I thought, and the 3 ladies were all occupied with programmes too that night, so… oh well…

RGS Cooking 

22 Jul morning as a lot of fun. Cooking classes in RGS. The teachers were very nice and patient, and they made the lessons very relevant by relying mostly on kitchen equipment that we could afford in our future hostels/dormitories such as microwave ovens, thermal pots. We cooked rice, steamed fish, vegetables as well as pan-fried eggs. Simple? Indeed, but learning how to do them the hassle-free way was the important take-away of the day.  

To conclude, the pre-departure programmes were Helpful. The bonding between friends was even more valuable.

生活日志July 18, 2006 11:59 pm

 OBS

 

It was hard to have much expectations of OBS, after having fought my way through arguing with medical officers and admin officers to let me into the course, yet being barred from all hazardous activities and staying overnight on the island. But surprisingly, this OBS gave me a very different experience, and allowed me much insight into my own psychological build as well as team dynamics.

Day 1, all was fine in the earlier part of the day as we tackled group games such as number-tagging and fingers-lifting-the-hoop, I was very much the active me, shouting and offering suggestions here-and-there. Nothing could be more enjoyable, until kayaking came in the afternoon… Weihong and I were left at OBS site, while the rest ventured off on the seas.

It wasn’t to the extent of feeling devastated, but being left out never feels good. Weihong was surprisingly calm about it (given his scout background), sitting down and looking at everything pass. He was barred too, because of his back injury.  So I indulged myself in the 1 thing I could do: Take photos. Before the team returned from sea, I was to leave the island. I managed to wave them goodbye before I boarded my ferry, but it was barely comforting.

And this sequence repeated itself on day 2 morning, when they were involved in climbing the inverse pyramid. Barred from climbing and belaying, I actively sought to be the belay assistant. Only when afternoon came, when we embarked on the Land Ex, did I feel alive again. I happily carried the backpack, hopping and skipping along the way, bridging gaps in the line, spurring on the team as and when… I felt like a contributor again, though I left the important work of topography to the combat-trained guys.

Having to leave the island after reaching destination camp-site was another low-point. Fortunately, when I returned to the site the next morning, details of the night were filled in for me by narration, and we proceeded to do our rafting in the lake, which I am thankful that OBS allowed me to do. I worked hard at tying the raft and enjoying myself in the quarry lake, but somehow, I grew conscious that i was experiencing much less of the comraderie between all the others. It was an imbalancing thought, and I fought hard against it, only to conclude that it was inevitable. I was going through less than 40% of the whole experience! 

The subsequent afternoon, the watch were paddling through the Sun, mud and waters, while Weihong and I discussed all these emotional issues.  He surprised me alot. Originally, I thought he was but another hyper-enthu guy just like me, but he did that and more. He shared his insights with me, and I was really impressed by how he handled his(our) predicaments and made the best out of everything.

So eventually, when it came to the last day, at the sharing session, once I got rid of the suspicions that my hyper-enthusiasm (without sharing the sweat and pain ) was not being treated with animity, I realised how flawed my thinking was, and how I haven’t truly played my part in being a good watch-mate and good leader in my duty as a TSPC I/C.

Leadership is never about contributing more or taking full control of the entire situation. It’s about (as they say the 3 "P"s — People, Process, Product) how you delegate your work, set your objectives, and motivate your team to go on and on!

And OBS’s lessons were a timely reminder.  

生活日志, 戏剧/电影July 9, 2006 1:26 pm

swsposter 

Do you see the 雷雨 tatoo on my face?  纹身(脸颊)说的不是精忠报国,而是雷雨! 

bingkai 

Senior Bing!kai with stupid face =) 秉!凯笨笨的样子

Yesterday was "Songs We Sang" organised by The Theatre Practice (TTP), which basically was an Old-Song-Sing-Along, with classics from the 1960-1970s. Having made many publicity telemarketing, I guess I did somehow contribute to the surprisingly okay turnout today (sales weren’t really brisk last week).

And this should be the last event I can help TTP with, considering the busy schedules with MOE Pre-departure, and subsequently preparations for Overseas life.

It’s been great fun knowing everyone, and it’s a real pity I can’t take part in 雷雨.

昨天晚上,实践剧场在创新科技创新源举办了“昔日好歌大家唱”,许许多多老中年人士都前来参与千人大合唱,曲目都是一些60和70年代的经典文艺歌曲和民谣。身为推广活动的电话宣传组员,我或许和令人意外的销路能够车上一些关系。(截至上周,票房实在不怎样)

很遗憾的,这或许是我在离开前最后一次为实践剧场做任何事了。教育部的预备座谈会,外展课程等等将从明天开始陆续举行,而在那之后还须为日后的留学生涯作准备,让人应接不暇。

认识实践的大家,实在是个令人开心和欣慰的事。错失参加《雷雨》剧表演的机会,是种遗憾。

生活日志, 教育July 5, 2006 11:02 pm

 

Picture courtesy of "I not * stu*pid too" 照片取自《小孩**不笨2》剧*照

Yesterday, I was out at Junction 8 foodcourt with fellow Teaching scholar Kan*dy when I witnessed something nasty unfold right in front of my eyes.

A schoolboy ‘Alpha’ (in white shirt and pants) and schoolboy ‘Beta’ (white shirt and brown pants) started a fierce arguements, expletives were flying everywhere, and within the next minute, blows were exchanged before they tangled in a mess and rammed against a wall.

Half of their companions were trying to hold them back, but what particularly shocked me was how another ‘Beta’ schoolboy sought every opportunity to whack ‘Alpha’s head.

Eventually they attracted too much attention, and the ‘Beta’s decided to move the fight to the rooftop atrium. Fortunately, the ‘Alpha’s did not follow. All this while, despite having risen to stop them, I stood helplessly, only tensing myself to hold back ‘Alpha’s should they go on out…

It was a traumatic experience, especially so when I had committed myself to the education career not too long ago. And then many questions start popping up in my head:

  • Could I have stopped the fight?
  • Could I have influenced these students to be happier and gentlemanly?
  • !@#$^ ???

And then I think to myself: I’ve had too much of being sheltered and pampered… high time to train my body, mind and soul to reach out to these kids in future.

昨天中午,我和另一位教育部的朋友到碧山第8站食阁的时候,撞见了一件令人十分震惊和担忧的事。

某校男生A与另一学校的男生B开始在离我们不超过5公尺的地方争执,粗言秽语满天飞,然后不足60秒,那两个男生已经打成一团了!

A和B的朋友试图将两人拉开,也有唯恐天下不乱的几个小鬼头竟然乘乱向A乱碰乱打。我心中正酝酿着莫名的恐惧与担忧。

当时食阁以内的人已然听见了两人的争吵,目光都转移到了我们这个小角落。B显然想要为此事做个“了断”,便抛下战书意欲在楼顶户外广场上摊牌。好在A并没有尾随对方到外头去,否则后果不堪设想。在这一切发生的同时,我只能呆呆地站在那头,像孩子一样的无助。脑海中只想着:“决不能让A跟着出去。”

那是一个令人相当震撼的经历,尤其在刚投身进入教育界的这关头,更是令心绪久久不能平静。许许多多的念头在心中闪过:

  • 倘若插手,我是否有能耐阻止他们的暴力行为?
  • 倘若为人师,我究竟有没有能耐开解他们,引领他们向上向善?
  • ·#(*¥—)???
然后,我得到了一个结论:在温室里成长的我,就像是一个未经历大风雨的小苗子。只有不停地锻炼自己,让自己身心全面成熟成长,才有可能为我的学生开启未来的一扇一扇的门。

生活日志July 2, 2006 4:45 pm

 Chinese Universities

The above 3 (in order of preference) are what I’ve listed in my application form to the China Scholar*ship Council. But at the end, they will allocate me only 1 school. Oh well…

So far Tzehee and Yuting have already received news that they’re allocated to Fudan. I wonder when I’ll receive my notice… 

以上就是我报读中国大学的志愿表上所填上的3所学府。 但最后,他们只会将我编派到其中一所。唉~

至今,思喜和毓亭已经获悉被编派到复旦的消息了,也不晓得几时才轮到我? 

生活日志 12:20 am


 

03/07/06 : Practice for Music*Dreamer performance. 爱琴海表演排练

05/07/06 : Rehearsal 1 for TSPC @ MOE HQ. 颁奖礼表演项目排练I

07/07/06 : Rehearsal 2 for TSPC @ MOE HQ. 颁奖礼表演项目排练II

10/07/06 - 14/07/06 : PSC Pre-dep course. 公共服务部奖学金预备座谈会

15/07/06 - 18/07/06 : OBS 外展新加坡

20/07/06 : MOE Induction course. 教育部收纳座谈会

21/07/06 - 22/07/06: MOE Pre-dep course with cooking training. 教育部海外生活座谈会外加基本厨艺训练

04/08/06 : Teaching Scholarship Presentation Ceremony  奖学金颁发仪式

all this and more while I juggle my commitments between being a TSPC item I/C, volunteer work at The Theatre Practice, as well as the current thrice weekly badminton training. But it feels good not to idle =)

与此同时,我必须兼顾表演项目队长职务、实践剧场义务工作、以及一周3次的羽球训练。负担重了些,但绝对比游手好闲来的好。=)